Good evening from Linneus.... it has been a few degrees warmer.today...
I stayed in bed till 10 am...showered,dressed headed to kitchen window to open curtains..Somebody knocked..it was my cousin ,Janell ,she brought.me a biscut and sausage gravey she had made so I invited her in and asked if she would stay for coffee..I'd make some..She said yes so I started.it brewing..It is slow ,pot needed replaced about 6 months ago ,but I just keep using it..First it brews 2 cups of rea...lly strong coffee ,then it splutters,slows down and sometimes I tap the top and it gets a second wind...ha...But when you are used to the way things work..you just.keep them till they totally konk out..ha
I asked Janell if she would like some really strong coffee..She said yes,so we got our coffee fixed the way we liked it and sat back down to visit..She had busy day ahead so didn't stay long,but we always enjoy our visits..
I nuked my biscut and gravey and had another cup of coffee and took my meds....so its pretty much noon and my day is just beginning..the joys of being retired and laid back...
My neighbor and I were laughing this week saying it takes about an hour to clean entire apt..a big change from homes we lived in,but I said I look at this as a chapter.in my life..we just have to adjust the way our lives evolve...the next phase is nursing home or cementary.. Hey I'm just being honest..I do not want to be on life support ,so I have signed papers to that effect..just let me die quietly at home..or wherever God chooses..
Part of life is acceptance..of reality..
Last night I received some pictures of my sons funeral and cremation that I had never saw..It is hard to understand how it will be 4 years this July...and seeing these photos brought joy and sadness at the same time... It has affected.each of us differently...The pain brought on by the loss of a loved one or friend is one you never forget..I thought of his boss.that did CPR on him ,he probably has had nightmares of trying to save his friend,whether its watching a fellow soldier die,a family member,a friend,and sometimes a stranger..None of it is easy to get out of your head..
It does make you so aware how precious life really is...and you feel so helpless...God says our lives are like a vapor.. And He decides when He is ready for us..To try and live our.lives.without God.is so foolish..
Please know each life is so special and touches so many people...value yours and others..God.cares so much for us.He even knows the hairs on our head..and Remember You Are LOVED....